She Changed..

It has been almost 3 months since the last time I saw her. And not only that, we don't talk, text or chat that often anymore. We broke up several times within the span of 3 months. I admit that I had to change something in my attitude that's why that happened. Guess what, I've changed and I never did the same thing again.

I am feeling some changes now. The last time I was in Manila she wanted to come to my place and live there because there are a lot of confidential things that is happening to her. Well, I waited and waited. Now it is almost 3 months of waiting but it's okay. I can wait longer if I need to. The only hard part is that I think she changed. In the span of 3 months I think she started to go out everyday for 2 straight weeks. And when I asked her why she said "She wanted to forget about me that's why she is doing that". That really hurt my feelings. She even deleted all our pictures from my Facebook account and most of the time when she calls she is drunk.

I am trying to understand everything that she is going through. But, nowadays it's becoming worse. She don't call anymore, she don't text that often anymore and when I asked her why she said she is very busy. Actually, we are both very busy these days. I don't know what will happen in the near future but I will wait forever if I need to. Her birthday has passed, she even went out of the country for her birthday without telling me but that's okay. IF SHE'S HAPPY I AM HAPPY for her. Yesterday was our 7th monthsary. I greeted her through a text message but she didn't reply. Well that's okay. All I know is that I LOVE HER SO.

I even saw a wall post saying "I like him but I love you, he wants me and you do too. But if you asked me who, it's always been you. I like his my but I like your G Style coz you're the only one my heart desires. I got to tell the truth it's always been you".

I was touched but hurt at the same time. It means that he has been hanging out with someone that he is attracted to. And she knows that this guy likes her too. Well, what could I say. All I know is that I love her so. If she is happy that way, than I don't care about my happiness anymore. What is important is that she is happy. Since she posted that in her wall I've been crying every night again. I didn't want to open up this topic to her because I know she has been undergoing a lot of problems..

But that's okay... I love her.. I love her so that I don't care about my happiness anymore. I just miss the way things were. I just miss everything. For the past few months I was a "NO LIFE PERSON" well actually until now. All I do is sleep, wake up, eat, work, take a bath, eat and sleep again. It's okay that it's been a long time that I smiled or laughed as long as I know that she is happy and she could still smile and laugh everyday. ... Yes, I do that for her.. Coz' I love her so.

Endless Love By: Diana Ross and Lionel Ritchie

You are my endless love. This song and video is for you. I personally made the video and I hope you would like it. I Love You So.

What Can I Say About Her?

Well, what can I say about her? I think there are a lot of things I can say about her. She’s beautiful, bright, simple and sweet which everyone’s looking for in a girl. She loves to party but she doesn’t drink liquor. Yeah, I just said that. She loves to party but she really doesn’t drink liquor. It’s hard to find someone like that right? What else can I say about her, well she loves shopping, she loves shoes, she loves watches and she love cars. Did I say earlier that she is simple? Yes she is but she can also dress to kill.

She is fun to be with, you seldom see her pouting because most of the time you can see her smiling or laughing. But that’s not all, if you think she is approachable well she is not. She can dance and she can sing, well you are looking at a talented girl. I always remember she often tells me that if she was a boy she’d be a gangster and be one of the most wanted in the streets. She also loves driving, she loves making long drives and she loves going out of town. If you don’t know, she joined several beauty contests in her teenage years.

There are a lot of people who admire her because she is very helpful and caring to friends. Don’t piss her off because she will tell you that “One miss you die”. She also gets bored or pissed off with someone or something very fast. So you should keep her happy, laughing and smiling all the time.

In every person there are negative attitudes that a person has and that cannot be avoided. Well, there are a lot of negative attitudes I can say but that’s okay because I love her as is. What are her negative attitudes? Number one is, she is spoiled. So that means she gets what she wants whenever she wants something. You cannot tell her to do something if she doesn’t want to do it. She has insomnia that’s why she stays up late a lot. Don’t talk trash with her because she can talk trash better than you. She often picks on someone especially when she is bored. She is prank that’s why what you hear from her is always the truth.

The most important thing I can say to her? I love her so – I love her more than anything or everything. I love her more than my own life.